Firstly, I love my little girl beyond belief and I am so grateful that I have a healthy, happy baby because there were times that I didn’t think it would be possible to have children at all.

However, today is a dark day. I know that I’m very fortunate that I don’t have them often and they soon disappear with some good sleep; there are a lot of new mums who experience post natal depression on a daily basis. I’m so lucky that I don’t but that doesn’t make days like today much easier.

I haven’t slept well for months. My baby is teething so she gets very quickly and very easily upset, which upsets me. She wants to be carried by me all the time at the moment, which is draining and means I can’t get anything done at all. Yesterday we left home and had to turn back again because she cried so much – I feel like I haven’t left the house in ages.

My boyfriend just left to go to work and I cried. I cried because he is going out into the world where he can socialise and do his job. I cried because he was in a crappy mood today because he said he didn’t sleep well last night. I cried because I feel like I’ll never experience having a career in the same way again. I cried because I am facing another day at home where I’m wondering how to fill in the time between feeding my daughter when I can’t get her to go to sleep. I cried because I just want a huge hug and for someone to tell me that things will be ok. I know they will and I just have to accept today for what it is.

Tomorrow is a new day.